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I sat, slouching over an A4-sized white paper. I had been idling at the desk for fifteen minutes, twirling the pencil in my hand, tapping my foot, and staring at the emptiness of the paper. My mind was chanting magic spells at the paper, hoping that it would fill itself. It never did, just like the time I tried it exactly one year ago on my 15th birthday. Luckily, the first part was easy - draw a horizontal line to divide the paper into two long-halves, and then divide the line into three parts by marking four notches. In Korean, the notches were labeled: "Short term," "Five years," "Ten years," and "Thirty years."
Since I was a teenager, my father emphasized the essentiality of having a timeline of my future with the following main components: goals, dreams, and the tools I would need in order to achieve them. I adhered to these annual rituals just to fulfill the obligation, but without having discovered my passion, I only knew how to fill the timelines with frivolous wishes and platitudes: "Earn a lot of money," "Marry a beautiful wife," and "Find a nice job." Most of it was just a ritual that I used to take for granted, but it subconsciously influenced the choices I made and what I valued.
After graduating high school, I spent four years as a programmer at United Healthcare. I had chosen the career based on financial security and a fancy job title, thus making it worthy of a spot in my timeline. Despite its perks that most people would want, I rarely felt whole, and instead, I felt like a machine. What the heck was I missing?
One of the things I learned as I walked through the real world was the importance of education. Yearning for a new chance to fall in love with learning, I enrolled in a degree program at University of Massachusetts while working part-time. Having a new outlook and an inner desire to be enriched with knowledge enabled me to discover abilities within me that I never knew existed. This secret that naturally changed me from a "C-" high school student to an "A" college student was so tantalizing, that I applied such mindset to other aspects of life.
As I continually searched for meaningful existence beyond the society's standards, I researched and subjected myself to experience the intricacies of different fields. My unbound energy and curiosity may have taken the longer route against Sisyphean norms, but it's how I found my exact God-given purpose in the healthcare field and its related studies, and I wouldn't have chosen to do it any other way.
Something about my hard work directly transforming into other's happiness is more inherently rewarding to me than anything else. When we combine our soul with passion, humanity, and knowledge, it becomes one of the most realistic superpowers that exist in our universe, and it can defeat any obstacles getting in the way of doing the right things. It's the superpower that eventually made my magic spells paint vivid pictures of my future on the timeline, and I can clearly see myself cheerfully walking across New York University's campus, greeting the diversity of bright spirits and the stories that come from all walks of life, and fully embracing the environment where others come to find or feed their passion. I know that New York University is where I won't be considered "unusual" for being soul-side-out. Having the privilege to academically challenge myself again at a place that specializes in (what should I fill this with?) is an exhilarating thought. I must warn everyone though, that this superpower is quite contagious!