What is important to you? And why? (maximum 250 words)
Just like in December of 2018, I fell into a nervous breakdown again last October. I tried asking myself what was causing it, because I was tired of being attacked by the recurring symptoms: rumination, heart palpitations, insomnia, muscle aches and so on. I reflected on my lifestyle but to me it was as normal as that of any other typical Asian high school student. I found out that those exact signs run in my extended family-- it was hereditary, and I am highly susceptible to it. Seeking a therapist was not a choice as having any sort of mental illness is considered taboo here, so I opted for self-help by doing a lot of reading and seeking advice from those who suffer along with me, online.
Since then, my priorities have shifted massively. Although outwardIy I am a high-functioning person, in reality I tend to spread myself too thin trying to achieve rather unrealistic expectations based on society's standard model of 'success' at the expense of my mental health. Now I gradually grow to realize that I have a bigger purpose in life; to be one who is well-rounded, leaves a positive impact in the world, while also being in contentment. In the pursuit of that, I invest more time 'slowing down' --by painting, looking at the universe and learning about my religion, and acknowledging my small successes. This sense of balance is what I regard as quintessential to a more fulfilling life.I just want to know if this essay sounds too personal or is running away from the topic. Any sort of feedback on content/structure is appreciated. Thank you! :)