fsugirl89
Apr 23, 2007
Undergraduate / 'BETWEEN YOU AND I: MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY' - for honors application [6]
Okay, here's my essay.
BETWEEN YOU AND I: MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY
I mean, have you ever met a sixty-year-old man with a blood-red mohawk? I was intimidated, petrified, shocked, yet slightly amused. This man was to be my new boss. His name was Oliver Albee and he single-handedly built the magazine empire known as Narcissus: You'll Fall in Love with Yourself.
I remember his first words to me: " Lena, darling, I am simply thrilled by your resume. You are a smashing photographer and a brilliant writer... brilliant, brilliant! I have no doubt you would bring so much to my magazine. However, there is one small thing... here at Narcissus we have one rule, you must be willing to fall in love with yourself. And, sweetheart, I do not mean vanity, I mean self-confidence. You must radiate it! I want self-confidence to ooze out your ears! Are you ready to fall in love with yourself Lena?"
The next day, I showed up to Narcissus as the new "My Most Embarrassing Moments..." columnist. I didn't exactly have the most interesting job on the magazine team, but nevertheless, I was overjoyed just to write about a woman's awkward realization that the back of her one-of-a-kind black satin Versace dress was tucked into her bright pink panties that read "Ooh la la!" Today, I still work for Narcissus; however, rather than telling troublesome tales, I am the vice-president of the corporation and the co-editor-in-chief (with Oliver Albee himself) of the magazine. I worked my way up, working various jobs, until finally it all paid off.
Thinking back to Oliver's first words to me, I realized that I always have been in love with myself... or rather, with my life. I have never been happier! And I could not ask for more: I have a wonderful job, a beautiful home, and a loving family. In fact, as I write, I look around my New York apartment at my husband, Michael and my two children, Isabella and Nicholas who are all watching VeggieTales together on the couch singing "Oh where, oh where, oh where is my hairbrush?!" with Larry the cucumber. Truthfully, I do not even know where my own hairbrush is amidst all the boxes and packing materials. A few months ago, Michael and I decided that we needed to find a bigger place to raise the kids and now, here we are, getting ready to move out. We have had so many memories here in the past ten years, which makes me sad to leave yet ready to move on. Almost like being optimistic and nostalgic at the same time.
I remember feeling this exact way 21 years ago after leaving Florida for my graduate studies at Northwestern University. I had lived in Venice and Tallahassee, Florida for most of my life and the thought of moving into the "unknown" scared me senseless. Leaving the friends and environment at Florida State University, to which I had been so attached, seemed illogical; however, the thought of finally going off into the "real world" was a dream that I could not pass up. I am sure you have heard the saying that college consists of the best years in one's life. I must disagree with this statement. In my life, no year has been better than the next because I have enjoyed every minute, hour, and day. Each year is special because it consists of individual days that each bring along new knowledge. Just the other day, my six-year-old daughter Isabella informed me that the Queen of England has a rubber duck in her bathtub that dons an inflatable crown. Hey, we learn something new everyday, right?
However, it seems as though no one is willing to learn anymore. We think that once schooling is over, we must cease to learn. Herein lies society's ultimate problem, for how can anyone advance without a mind open to learning? I hope I never lose my curiosity for knowledge. I know my mother never has and I respect her for that. After my graduation from Florida State University, my mother decided to further her own education at the Juilliard School of Music. Now, at the age of 67, my mother composes music used in many major films and is a professor at none other than Juilliard. She followed her dreams and just look at what she has achieved! Her life gives me hope and courage. Thus far, I have always followed my dreams. I have become what I always dreamt of becoming - a writer. It makes me smile to know that dreams can come true.
One of my favorite songs, now an oldie from the year 2006, has always been The Riddle by Five for Fighting. I find that it embodies many of the secrets that life holds. The song states: " There are secrets that we still have left to find. There have been mysteries from the beginning of time. There are answers we're not wise enough to see. I'm big but we're smaller than small. In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all." Sometimes, we, in general, are selfish and believe the world revolves around us. Yes, we can make a difference but we are not omniscient and we cannot live only for ourselves. The song continues: "Here's a riddle for you. Find the answer. There's a reason for the world. You and I..." You and I. That's everyone! That's the world! We are alive for the good of the world and what we do does affect those around us whether good or bad. Throughout my life, I have met many people who have impacted my life and I hope that I too have impacted theirs.
My life is not based on fame, money, or any other superficial quality. I am simply myself. And I think that is the greatest thing a person can be. Looking at pictures from throughout my life, I see huge changes over the years. My hair changed, I have grown, and now I've even acquired some age lines; however, I am still the same person that I was when I was ten years old. That silly and unpredictable girl is still evident in the woman I am today. I still love music, I still like to dance, and most of all, I still live to laugh.
If I have done nothing else in my life, I am satisfied to know that I have influenced those around me through love. Some want to be remembered for their great achievements, some for their beauty, and some for their money. I don't want any of that. If you are to remember me, I don't want you to think of my success for Narcissus or my fame from writing, I want you to remember me from the way my life has influenced yours. Have I made you think, have I made you laugh, have I made you cry, have I made you angry, or have I made you fall in love with
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Okay, here's my essay.
BETWEEN YOU AND I: MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY
I mean, have you ever met a sixty-year-old man with a blood-red mohawk? I was intimidated, petrified, shocked, yet slightly amused. This man was to be my new boss. His name was Oliver Albee and he single-handedly built the magazine empire known as Narcissus: You'll Fall in Love with Yourself.
I remember his first words to me: " Lena, darling, I am simply thrilled by your resume. You are a smashing photographer and a brilliant writer... brilliant, brilliant! I have no doubt you would bring so much to my magazine. However, there is one small thing... here at Narcissus we have one rule, you must be willing to fall in love with yourself. And, sweetheart, I do not mean vanity, I mean self-confidence. You must radiate it! I want self-confidence to ooze out your ears! Are you ready to fall in love with yourself Lena?"
The next day, I showed up to Narcissus as the new "My Most Embarrassing Moments..." columnist. I didn't exactly have the most interesting job on the magazine team, but nevertheless, I was overjoyed just to write about a woman's awkward realization that the back of her one-of-a-kind black satin Versace dress was tucked into her bright pink panties that read "Ooh la la!" Today, I still work for Narcissus; however, rather than telling troublesome tales, I am the vice-president of the corporation and the co-editor-in-chief (with Oliver Albee himself) of the magazine. I worked my way up, working various jobs, until finally it all paid off.
Thinking back to Oliver's first words to me, I realized that I always have been in love with myself... or rather, with my life. I have never been happier! And I could not ask for more: I have a wonderful job, a beautiful home, and a loving family. In fact, as I write, I look around my New York apartment at my husband, Michael and my two children, Isabella and Nicholas who are all watching VeggieTales together on the couch singing "Oh where, oh where, oh where is my hairbrush?!" with Larry the cucumber. Truthfully, I do not even know where my own hairbrush is amidst all the boxes and packing materials. A few months ago, Michael and I decided that we needed to find a bigger place to raise the kids and now, here we are, getting ready to move out. We have had so many memories here in the past ten years, which makes me sad to leave yet ready to move on. Almost like being optimistic and nostalgic at the same time.
I remember feeling this exact way 21 years ago after leaving Florida for my graduate studies at Northwestern University. I had lived in Venice and Tallahassee, Florida for most of my life and the thought of moving into the "unknown" scared me senseless. Leaving the friends and environment at Florida State University, to which I had been so attached, seemed illogical; however, the thought of finally going off into the "real world" was a dream that I could not pass up. I am sure you have heard the saying that college consists of the best years in one's life. I must disagree with this statement. In my life, no year has been better than the next because I have enjoyed every minute, hour, and day. Each year is special because it consists of individual days that each bring along new knowledge. Just the other day, my six-year-old daughter Isabella informed me that the Queen of England has a rubber duck in her bathtub that dons an inflatable crown. Hey, we learn something new everyday, right?
However, it seems as though no one is willing to learn anymore. We think that once schooling is over, we must cease to learn. Herein lies society's ultimate problem, for how can anyone advance without a mind open to learning? I hope I never lose my curiosity for knowledge. I know my mother never has and I respect her for that. After my graduation from Florida State University, my mother decided to further her own education at the Juilliard School of Music. Now, at the age of 67, my mother composes music used in many major films and is a professor at none other than Juilliard. She followed her dreams and just look at what she has achieved! Her life gives me hope and courage. Thus far, I have always followed my dreams. I have become what I always dreamt of becoming - a writer. It makes me smile to know that dreams can come true.
One of my favorite songs, now an oldie from the year 2006, has always been The Riddle by Five for Fighting. I find that it embodies many of the secrets that life holds. The song states: " There are secrets that we still have left to find. There have been mysteries from the beginning of time. There are answers we're not wise enough to see. I'm big but we're smaller than small. In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all." Sometimes, we, in general, are selfish and believe the world revolves around us. Yes, we can make a difference but we are not omniscient and we cannot live only for ourselves. The song continues: "Here's a riddle for you. Find the answer. There's a reason for the world. You and I..." You and I. That's everyone! That's the world! We are alive for the good of the world and what we do does affect those around us whether good or bad. Throughout my life, I have met many people who have impacted my life and I hope that I too have impacted theirs.
My life is not based on fame, money, or any other superficial quality. I am simply myself. And I think that is the greatest thing a person can be. Looking at pictures from throughout my life, I see huge changes over the years. My hair changed, I have grown, and now I've even acquired some age lines; however, I am still the same person that I was when I was ten years old. That silly and unpredictable girl is still evident in the woman I am today. I still love music, I still like to dance, and most of all, I still live to laugh.
If I have done nothing else in my life, I am satisfied to know that I have influenced those around me through love. Some want to be remembered for their great achievements, some for their beauty, and some for their money. I don't want any of that. If you are to remember me, I don't want you to think of my success for Narcissus or my fame from writing, I want you to remember me from the way my life has influenced yours. Have I made you think, have I made you laugh, have I made you cry, have I made you angry, or have I made you fall in love with
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