Undergraduate / I had only one dream : College admission [4]

In my nineteen years of existence, I had only one dream. That dream was to pursue a career in the field of which my mother had always wanted to persist. My mother was a small town realtor who had a passion of becoming a pastry chef, but never had the chance to go after it. She was diagnosed with breast cancer in the year of 2007 and later took her own life in 2008. I was 14 years old, traumatized, lost in my own world because I have just lost my mother who was my best friend. The day of my mom's funeral I've made one promise to her and that was to be the pastry chef she has always wanted to be. After six years of preparing myself to become this amazing chef I planned to be, I came to a sudden realization that I've been chasing the wrong dream. For years I've worked like a robot, now I want to step out of the kitchen and do what makes me feel alive again.

I have always wanted to learn more about the fashion industry. I want to learn more about the fundamentals of consumer behavior and build my skills to create a marketing communication plan using advertisement. I've worked in a few retail stores in my high school and college years to learn more about the business. I also created a blog online about my opinions about fashion photographers and ad campaigns. As my blog became more and more attached to me, I've decided to travel to Europe to write about the trends that are becoming popular around the European country. It was the start of my soul searching journey. In the summer of 2013, I booked my first flight out of the US. I was afraid, but knew this would be the best spontaneous trip I have ever planned. When I arrived in Europe, I looked around and did not know where to start. I stayed in London for a week and then took a train to Paris. I felt my inspiration for fashion growing even larger than it ever was. After coming back home from my trip, it was like I grew an extra eye on my forehead that can see fashion in a whole different level. Bags, shoes, clothing, and accessories became hard to just take a glimpse of. I can't say that I have a terrible choice of clothing when it comes to dressing up. But I can say that I am not unique. I HAD the taste of a 29 year old woman who dressed casually for work. Now, with my third eye I see the colors, I see the designs, and I see designer clothing that is hard to detach myself away from. When I open my closet, the colors that used to overwhelm the lighting bringing dullness inside, has been rearranged by new excitement. As I open my new wardrobe, it is now what I call "alive".

I've always dreamed of going into fashion school, but never felt that I had what it takes. But now I know that if I'm passionate about something I'm going to go for it without turning back. This is what I have been missing out on in my life and would not want to lose any opportunity. I am still young with a lot of time on my hands that is too precious to waste. I will be a dedicated student who will give it my all until I reach a level of success. My goal is to know what I want to do in my life. It just took me quite a long time to give up everything I prepared myself for. My mother is someone that I love more than anyone in the world, but chasing after her dreams wasn't the answer for me. I'm finished with my mom's past and now I am moving on to my future.