itstyler116
Sep 7, 2015
Undergraduate / Empty state UCF personal statement, obstacle in personal or academic life [3]
I still remember the empty feeling in my chest as I hesitantly explained to my mother the condition of my mental state. Depression. She cried for me, worried as any mother would. It ate at me as I sat lonely in my room after telling her how I felt, feeling pathetic for pitying myself when others have problems weighing much more heavily on them than my own. I had no reason to not want to live and be happy. I had a roof over my head, food to eat, and a mother who loves me more than life itself. So why did I still feel so empty?
My mother has always done everything she could on her own to ensure that I had everything I needed to be happy. My mental state weighed heavily on her, dragging her into a depression of her own. I realized, if I could not be strong for my mother neither of us could get better and be happy. I thought about my future and what I could do to overcome my state of mind. I was determined to work hard and pull myself from the depths of my depression. School and my grades became my number one priority, setting a goal to get into college and educate myself was my savior. With determination I have defeated depression, and so has my mother. I will continue to persevere and reach my goals of going to college and creating a healthy, happy life for myself and my mother.
I still remember the empty feeling in my chest as I hesitantly explained to my mother the condition of my mental state. Depression. She cried for me, worried as any mother would. It ate at me as I sat lonely in my room after telling her how I felt, feeling pathetic for pitying myself when others have problems weighing much more heavily on them than my own. I had no reason to not want to live and be happy. I had a roof over my head, food to eat, and a mother who loves me more than life itself. So why did I still feel so empty?
My mother has always done everything she could on her own to ensure that I had everything I needed to be happy. My mental state weighed heavily on her, dragging her into a depression of her own. I realized, if I could not be strong for my mother neither of us could get better and be happy. I thought about my future and what I could do to overcome my state of mind. I was determined to work hard and pull myself from the depths of my depression. School and my grades became my number one priority, setting a goal to get into college and educate myself was my savior. With determination I have defeated depression, and so has my mother. I will continue to persevere and reach my goals of going to college and creating a healthy, happy life for myself and my mother.
