Undergraduate / Science vs art head vs heart---Main essay [8]

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When I was little, I swore that I would never go learn liberal arts. Despite being hated by most girls, Math has always been my best subject. To a certain extent, I have always been proud of my distinctive. I saw Math as the wisest and truest thing, and it could always bring me something different, and some ways that I have never thought of. On the other hand, I have always thought liberal arts are obscure and unpractical.

At the beginning of my high school year, I started to watch many English movies to boost up my English proficiency. I was first searching for movies that are acceptable for most of the people, like some Hollywood blockbusters. Instead, later on the year I found that many movies, such as the Fast and Furious 7, are simply representing an old idea for commercial purpose, or using the exaggerated propaganda/rhetoric to attract more of its audiences. That logic even made me confused when I first saw the movies like Before Sunset and Boyhood, because they are all simply telling an on-going story without flashy storyline, but strangely they were all attracted me to watch again, until I have find that those directors are not simply presenting tedious/( story), they are reflecting the most resonant and questionable things in our lives, and really treated these films a piece of art as they were willing to spent 18 or 12 years on them.

When I was watching the documentary about Titanic's filming process, there are big descriptions about how did the computer graphic helped to make the impossible setting came true, and let me saw how those big heavy machines were cooperating behind the scenes first time. As I found out that a movie is an organic portrait of a mix of elements based on a certain theme. Science and technics, so rational and logic, undeniable are another stream of power from art. But if they are accidentally converged together, they can still work so well within each other to form the big portrait together, and extend the possibilities and knowns together. I have amazed by how Apple's founder Steve Jobs once put his bit taste of beauty into such a technical product.

One day, my headteacher came to tell us that our department is going to hold a micro movie competition around the trip to Jinggang, and sooner a staff who is working in the local television station is going to present a speech for us, as for a preparation for the on-going competition. During the lecture, the staff taught us how does every elements of a person, a story, a setting components a micro movies, and what does each frame and lens tells us about. Suddenly, many pictures flashing back in my head, like all those/the pictures have found its meanings. The figure of a director became more visualized as I was writing down all the points. However, though with all the movies I have saw, I still have never touched anything relates to filmmaking, and my comparative weakness on the basic knowledge of art makes me hesitated again. The thought/idea is like a spring, bouncing back and forth in my head. At the time close to the end of the class, the teacher played a movie sample for us, and I was the first in the class to interpret the meaning and the theme of the film. And then I thought, how wonderful it is if the film could be made from my own hands. And there the believe pushes me, and keeps telling me If I do not seize now, I might lose it forever, and I would must regret about it. So when the teacher asked who wants to be the director of the micro movie, I took a deep breath, and raised my hand.

I contacted six other craftsman who are the best people with their own jobs in our class. After a conversation, we dealed to focus on Jinggang's food culture and record it as a documentary. It feels great that I again have to chance to talk with the local people as I have always wanted to do when visiting to a new place, it is one of the best ways to get to know about the place and local people. So we settled our plans and started our journey. Some people on the bus suggested that we could do the work in a sitcom way because that would be more funnier; however, I have always preferred to deeply explore the ancient town and record some of them with our own abilities. Make those mundane things to valuable. To be honest, I was not nervous at all then, but I was clear that I need to make sacrifices and adjust with the changing for the team as I am the director. We finally arrived our first aim place, it is an old smoked tofu shop. Jinggang's smoked tofu has been famous since Ming and Qing dynasty. This was not the first time I am here, but everything seems to be unfamiliar again. We walked cross the curtain, and saw the same big table for the family to finish the final progress. Fortunately, after we have explain our purpose to coming, we were able to learn the skills of the final step. When I was directing, I can sense a strong feeling from my heart that makes me curious, excite and proud. I exciting about a work is going to produced by me, and amazed that once I am the person holding the unliving bricky machine and was going to make a vivid art work.

Art might be different from science, but there are the differences that you need to sense it with heart, not head. I really see this things as what I have gifted, I can use the scientific sight to calculate the portion, and think about science in a more unusual way. No matter who I used to be in the past, and who I am now, the only sure thing is I will keep my rational brain and the artsy heart.