Undergraduate / Is God real? Is it true that He's there in times of my deepest sorrow? [7]

This is the question:

Are there any significant experiences and achievements that helped define you as a person

I would really appreciate your help.

Being in the middle of my teenage life, I cannot escape the fact that I'm also in the middle of knowing myself and knowing the world. Knowing in a sense of learning through my challenges in life, achievements and learning through my relationship with God and with others. Teenage life is the toughest time indeed because I get to see the clear view of life - that it's not about fairytales and happy endings but it's about the reality that not everything is good and not everything may end up the way I want to. However, not everything that started bad may end up bad as well because through my perseverance, I believe I can overcome it.

Having problems and enemies are natural aspects of life. It is the core of knowing ones' self, I believe. Those aspects made me realize more about myself and made me change not only for my own good but also for the good of others. One experience that I won't forget about having enemies is when a classmate of mine confronted me in front of many people. I was not the only one who was shocked but also the people around me. It was an ultimate embarrassment, I know. For that moment, I can't think of anything but to ask myself why is she doing this? After days and days of wondering why, I've come to a realization that what she said is true. I'm acting bossy and dominant to them, and I want to change, I must have my limitations and discipline. I'm eager for a change. The next few months, things get better around me, her and my classmates. It is good to accept the things that others say, but acceptance is not the real key to make things better. For me, the real key is realization and change. Because if one keeps on accepting what other people says and not thoroughly think about it, there will be no improvement in his character and he will stay just the same immature person others know.

Is God real? Is it true that He's there in times of my deepest sorrow? If He is real, then why does He allow sufferings in mankind? These are the things I often think of when I was in my first year high school. My faith in God is definitely on the rocks. I question His presence, His power and all. I've got very shallow understanding of Him. Contrary to this, I was experiencing happiness all over the year. I also have problems, but the kind of problems I have were the ones easy to solve. Little did I know that I've got the greatest problem, and it's about my faith in God. After a few months, I wasn't expecting that my rollercoaster ride is already approaching its big drop. Me and my friends had a misunderstanding and we didn't talk for a long time. Apart from that, I'm having a serious problem about my grades. While thinking about all this, I suddenly stopped and prayed to God. I asked for His forgiveness and His guidance, and thanked Him for giving me quite a long time to enjoy the peak of my rollercoaster ride. That was the time I realized that in times of my sorrow, He's the first one I can go to. After a few days, I talked to my friends, explained my side and asked for forgiveness. They happily accepted me again. As for my grades, I studied really hard to be able to prevent myself from failing. I won't be able to do all this without God's guidance, I thought. Then, I asked myself again "why did I ever doubt His presence when He was giving me a moment of bliss?" God is real, God is always there when I needed Him the most, and God doesn't allow sufferings in mankind; it is us who makes our own sufferings.

Every experience I encounter, may it be good or bad, plays a big role in molding me and knowing me more. During the process of knowing myself, I've learned not only about me but also about God and other people. I've learned that ups and downs are the ones that make my ride of life worthwhile because after every downs of life, knowing that I've overcome and learned something out of it makes me feel stronger and gives me a sense of fulfillment. On the other hand, the ups of life are the moments where I finally get the fruits of my labor. It is the time where I rejoice for I know that every sacrifice I made is all worth it.

* please help me also with my last paragraph (4th paragraph). I don't know if what i've put there is fine already or do i need to add something more? and please help me how will i end it.. thanks :)