Undergraduate / 'Preeclampsia' - A personal narrative essay [5]

A lesson learned..I wonder, is it at all possible to learn harsh lessons of our life? Indeed in most spheres of human activity we can hope to take our previous mistakes into consideration and avoid them in the future. but concerning my feelings, is it right to blame myself about my baby death.?

It was an unforgettable day for me. I lost my fetal in the eighth month because of a silly problem between me and my husband, I lost him because of extreme nervousness, I got high blood pressure which led to "Preeclampsia". At first doctors refused to tell me, but after my health deteriorated they refused hold surgery for me, later I know. I can't forget what my feeling was at this time, it was a mixed feeling of sadness, fear, pain, and anger. I reached the edge of death. I wished death with my son at this moment. But suddenly hesitated words of a verse from Quran in my ears over and over again," He bringeth forth the living from the dead, and He bringeth forth the dead from the living."

Doctors saved my life but now that time has passed, I of course remember well the emotional turmoil that accompanied me. But now I am no longer too pessimistic. It is a daunting task to learn all lessons of our emotional experiences.