Undergraduate / Why I'm not motivated in highschool [3]

I applied to computer science at the university of Waterloo and I'm kinda scared that my answer doesn't make sense or shows that I'm a bad student or something. Please give feedback!

Btw these two questions are closely related and are in conjunction so they both need to be read. Thanks!

AIF ADMISSION QUESTIONS

Question 1 Circumstances Are there any issues or circumstances (e.g., medical, personal, or financial) that may have affected your academic record? If YES, please describe the circumstances in detail below. We are particularly interested in issues or circumstances that directly affected your academic performance and that led to a rise or drop in grades or to changes in your academic or personal goals. (900 character limit)

Never perceived as intelligent, I have listened to many discouraging comments about my education goals. I was told I was stupid, and that my application is a waste of money because I will get rejected. Waterloo has never seemed far-fetched to me, but when my peers expect me to fail, I question myself. If everyone thinks that way, maybe they're correct and I'm too idealistic. During the start of grade 12, I lost a lot of academic motivation because I was weak-minded and let negativity get to me. Why spend time and effort nourishing a fruit that would not be picked? However, after some self-reflection, I've come to realize that at least I have a goal. The ambition alone shows that I've beaten the people who never even tried. The lack of motivation at the beginning of the semester resulted in a perfunctory academic start. I wasn't giving all I had, but now my foot is back on the pedal.

Undergraduate / Why I decided to try in school - AIF Waterloo; tell anything else about yourself [4]

AIF ADMISSION QUESTIONS

The point I'm trying to convey is that I only tried in school for Waterloo's computer science program, and every other program is easy for me to get into. This is true, however, I'm scared that the reader will get the wrong idea or something.

As for the "which was what I was doing during the beginning of the semester", I outlined my problems in the previous question, which I also posted on this website, and it would be really helpful if you could take a look at that too because my answers might contradict each other.

Question 4 Additional Information

In addition to the specific information requested in all of the AIF questions, please tell us anything else about yourself that you would like us to know when we review your application. Please make sure to complete all sections of the AIF before submitting this page. (900 character limit)

Honestly, I could slack off and go to any other computer science program in Ontario, but I don't, and that's because I never take the easy way out. I always pursue the highest achievable goal, and right now, it would be to study computer science at Waterloo. That's why I'm currently trying my best academically rather than taking the lazy way out, which was what I was doing during the beginning of the semester. It's clear that I really want to study computer science at Waterloo. My reason being that Waterloo has the country's highest concentration of computer science researchers, has the world's largest co-op program, and has been the country's most innovative university for twenty-seven years. Taking all of this into account, I believe that Waterloo is the best school to achieve my goal of working for a FANG or similar company. It's worth putting in the extra effort.