Undergraduate / 'If you feel it so you can do it' - background/story essay [6]

This is my first draft , It is a true story and it is moving my emotions . Please give me feedback

challenging my skills

At first it is my story that I had a dream to join a big program which is for since programs which is kinda hard to get in it because it is required placement test on math and english which is hard in math . at the sam time I was bad in math and I had know idea what was the math . but i got a desire and i had a big dream that one day I'll join this program . So 2 years before the program suppose to starts their registration . I mad a plan to fix my obstacles and brook my weakness and challenge the math , so I started learning math from the 0 to the calculus. I draw a plan for two years even I made a corner on my room that reminds me of my dream and work for it , at the end I joined this program .

" If you feel it so you can do it " a word that is attached in my dreams board in my room . I belief from all my heart in this quote . Let me tell you my story , during high school I had a dream that one day I will join a program by XXXXXX that is called " XXXXXX " which is a college program for students to study science and prepare them for college, every single day I made a scenario at night that of the picture of me being a student with them . But I had obstacle that stands behind my dream , Math! . I hated this subject and I was bad on it , I did not even understood what it was . though the program was completely for people who has interested in science and specially in math and to join they have a placement test in math . How could I be a engineer while I hate the math ? It was my weakness point .

How ever , I was so dramatic person about my dreams , and I watching too much motivation movies . so I had a big desire that nothing is impossible , actually I had interest in spiritual sciences and I was doing meditation exercises to clear my brain as a habit .

I Promised me that I am going to break this weakness , I started a plan that I would make a real plan to accept the math and challenge it . So I made a corner at my room to make a paper plan in that corner with picture that is related with my goal even I attached a picture of a model of the acceptance letter and a big calendar that is for 2 years later . I bought a calculus books and I took my middle school mathematics books from the old books on the underground , I started learn this subject form the 0 basics from the real basic , to the high level of calculus . I wrote every subject in math on that list .