Undergraduate / What is the thing that you are most afraid of in your life? How do you deal with it? [2]

the "jealousy"

Since I entered high school,I have been overwhelmed by lots of pressure coming from my studies and peer.In pursuit of excellence,sometimes "jealousy" is the most vicious and enormous power that I'm extremely afraid of.Jealousy occupies my mind when I see my classmates performing better than me on studies or the tasks.I concern about how others can be so prominent and how inadequate I am.These feelings haunt my head and as a result make myself less confident.

For the reason that I perceive that "jealousy" gets me weaker,I try to fixate on myself instead of observing how others perform.I find this way efficient,as I'm able to accomplish my own task without considering others.Therefore,there are more spare time for me to elevate my ability and erect my self-esteem.Gradually,it becomes easier for me to confront those "jealous" thoughts because I'm always endeavor to trust in myself.By establishing confidence and self-esteem,I transform the evil "jealousy" into the "awareness" of my own mind.