My Motivation
Imagine feeling hopeless and scared and no one would come to your aid. That was I this time of the year about a year ago. Why was I filled with fear and felt hopeless? I was just recently told by my school's guidance department I was not allowed to drop grade twelve biology because I would not be able to do any better if I retook the course again next year. I was as well told I should reconsider my post secondary decisions, I should instead apply to a social science or even to a college instead of my dream school; University of Toronto. This filled me with hatred, anger, but most importantly I felt hopeless because my dream school and program since I was a young child was now out of reach. Everyday I told myself "If I am allowed to drop the course, I will prove everyone wrong." In the end after multiple meetings between my parents, the guidance department, vice principals, and I, I was told I was allowed to drop the course. I promised myself I would disprove everyone's opinion of me; that I could not achieve my goals and dreams. This moment in my life, left a permanent mark on my life.
I was not a great student, in fact I was a terrible student throughout high school up until grade twelve. Through grade nine to grade eleven, I received mainly marks ranging from the 60s to 70s. In grade eleven I was taking grade twelve biology, and I was not doing well at all. The mark I achieved at midterm left me faceless and deeply ashamed of myself. My parents and I decided I would drop the course and retake it next year. But my school's guidance department disapproved because by dropping the course I would then be a part time student. I was as well told that it was pointless to retake it because the outcome would be the same; my mark, but instead I should reconsider my university decisions. This was my motivation while in summer school and through grade twelve. I never wanted to be looked down on by anyone, no matter who the person may be. I made a promise to myself I will achieve everything I ever dreamed of. This was the wake up call I needed, if I didn't wake up I would never of had the chance to be where I am now. I was told I can't do something by everyone around me, at one point my own parents even felt that it was hopeless as well. Every single day since they day I was told I was allowed to drop the course I constantly told myself every "No ones believes you can, you have to prove them wrong. No ifs, ands, or buts. You have to do it, you will never be looked down on ever again by anyone." I have lived with that mentality ever since.
Though at the moment I was told I was not allowed to drop the course, I was filled with anger and hatred towards my school, reminiscing on this moment, I feel blessed that everyone told me I can't. If it was not for them; the non-believers, I would not of been able to achieve the things I have achieved. This was a life lesson I would take with me till the day I die, because it was extremely life altering. It changed my entire persona and mentality in life. Before this turning point of my life, I would wake up everyday without purpose and this negatively affected my academics because I had no motivation to work hard, but after the epiphany I had everyday I woke up with one purpose in mind; to prove everyone wrong. And this was all the motivation I needed to steamroll through all adversities I faced while studying. At times late in the night while studying for a test the next day I would be tired and want to sleep, but whenever I felt this sign of weakness I told myself "You have to be strong and push on to prove the doubters wrong." This life altering experience not only gave me motivation to do well but it made me mentally strong and tough. I was not afraid to handle any task because I knew I could achieve whatever I wanted to. I knew I just needed the right motivation to achieve everything I had ever dreamed of.
If it had not been for this life turning point in my life, I would of headed down the wrong path of life. I would most likely dropped out of high school because my marks would not of been high enough to be accepted by any post secondary institution. I would have been a disappointment to everyone, but most importantly I would of disappointed myself. I would of missed my opportunity to be successful in life and I would of missed my opportunity to prove everyone wrong. That I, William Xie is able to succeed and achieve what I want. Because of this life altering moment in my life, I have just recently been accepted to my dream school for my dream program; University of Toronto for their "Life Sciences" program, with an entrance scholarship of $1500 for the first year of my studies. After this moment in my life, I will never allow someone to tell me I can't or I am not qualified to do a specific task. This turning point in my life will have an impact on me for the rest of my life.
Imagine feeling hopeless and scared and no one would come to your aid. That was I this time of the year about a year ago. Why was I filled with fear and felt hopeless? I was just recently told by my school's guidance department I was not allowed to drop grade twelve biology because I would not be able to do any better if I retook the course again next year. I was as well told I should reconsider my post secondary decisions, I should instead apply to a social science or even to a college instead of my dream school; University of Toronto. This filled me with hatred, anger, but most importantly I felt hopeless because my dream school and program since I was a young child was now out of reach. Everyday I told myself "If I am allowed to drop the course, I will prove everyone wrong." In the end after multiple meetings between my parents, the guidance department, vice principals, and I, I was told I was allowed to drop the course. I promised myself I would disprove everyone's opinion of me; that I could not achieve my goals and dreams. This moment in my life, left a permanent mark on my life.
I was not a great student, in fact I was a terrible student throughout high school up until grade twelve. Through grade nine to grade eleven, I received mainly marks ranging from the 60s to 70s. In grade eleven I was taking grade twelve biology, and I was not doing well at all. The mark I achieved at midterm left me faceless and deeply ashamed of myself. My parents and I decided I would drop the course and retake it next year. But my school's guidance department disapproved because by dropping the course I would then be a part time student. I was as well told that it was pointless to retake it because the outcome would be the same; my mark, but instead I should reconsider my university decisions. This was my motivation while in summer school and through grade twelve. I never wanted to be looked down on by anyone, no matter who the person may be. I made a promise to myself I will achieve everything I ever dreamed of. This was the wake up call I needed, if I didn't wake up I would never of had the chance to be where I am now. I was told I can't do something by everyone around me, at one point my own parents even felt that it was hopeless as well. Every single day since they day I was told I was allowed to drop the course I constantly told myself every "No ones believes you can, you have to prove them wrong. No ifs, ands, or buts. You have to do it, you will never be looked down on ever again by anyone." I have lived with that mentality ever since.
Though at the moment I was told I was not allowed to drop the course, I was filled with anger and hatred towards my school, reminiscing on this moment, I feel blessed that everyone told me I can't. If it was not for them; the non-believers, I would not of been able to achieve the things I have achieved. This was a life lesson I would take with me till the day I die, because it was extremely life altering. It changed my entire persona and mentality in life. Before this turning point of my life, I would wake up everyday without purpose and this negatively affected my academics because I had no motivation to work hard, but after the epiphany I had everyday I woke up with one purpose in mind; to prove everyone wrong. And this was all the motivation I needed to steamroll through all adversities I faced while studying. At times late in the night while studying for a test the next day I would be tired and want to sleep, but whenever I felt this sign of weakness I told myself "You have to be strong and push on to prove the doubters wrong." This life altering experience not only gave me motivation to do well but it made me mentally strong and tough. I was not afraid to handle any task because I knew I could achieve whatever I wanted to. I knew I just needed the right motivation to achieve everything I had ever dreamed of.
If it had not been for this life turning point in my life, I would of headed down the wrong path of life. I would most likely dropped out of high school because my marks would not of been high enough to be accepted by any post secondary institution. I would have been a disappointment to everyone, but most importantly I would of disappointed myself. I would of missed my opportunity to be successful in life and I would of missed my opportunity to prove everyone wrong. That I, William Xie is able to succeed and achieve what I want. Because of this life altering moment in my life, I have just recently been accepted to my dream school for my dream program; University of Toronto for their "Life Sciences" program, with an entrance scholarship of $1500 for the first year of my studies. After this moment in my life, I will never allow someone to tell me I can't or I am not qualified to do a specific task. This turning point in my life will have an impact on me for the rest of my life.
