I deserve the chance to try make an impact at UT Austin
It is always a very euphoric feeling to be able to elicit a strong emotion from someone. At least that is how it has always felt for me. I have been acting since I was a shy, shrimpy boy in 6th grade and as each year passed me by I was able to better understand what I love so much about theatre. As a middle schooler, I was not sure what I was doing or why I could possibly be enjoying it. As such an apprehensive kid it did not make any sense why I enjoyed putting myself out in front of others but as I reminisce it was always just so exciting. Scary, but exciting nonetheless. Up until highschool that is the mindset I carried with me. I did it for the excitement. I did it because of how emotional it all made me feel. I began learning in high school a lot of hard truths. You might not always be cast. You might not ever be cast. You might be unliked. And there is always someone better than you. This brought me down for a while and I would say that only recently I have began to discover what I really love about theatre. I have found that it truly is the emotions that drive me now and will always drive me. Eliciting any kind of feeling from others has always invigorated me but more than anything else, what drives me is laughter. In times when I was not even sure why I was in plays, or in acting classes, or spending just so much of my time with theatre, I remembered laughter. My dream is to make people laugh and have the opportunity to center my career around that. But, I don't want to pigeonhole myself. I want the opportunity to make a career out of all emotions.
I have always fallen back on laughter when I had the choice between comedic and dramatic acting. I do not want to be forced to fall back anymore. Along with practicing long and hard to be the funniest person I can be, I want to be able to do everything else too. I want to make people cry. I want to make people scared. I want to make people angry. It is an honor when you see that you have had an effect on someone. I want the chance to become the best actor I can be, in every way possible. There are times in my life when I found it difficult to work hard. I did not always get the best grades in high school and I did not always feel confident in myself either. But, when it comes to being accepted into UT Austin's Theatre and Dance program and attending a college where I feel as though I can grow, I've never been more motivated. I finished my first semester at Collin Community College with really good grades and I expect to finish my second semester with the same, not because it's easy, but because I'm working hard. I want to become so funny that everyone laughs before I even start my jokes. It sounds unrealistic, but this is one of the first times in my life when I have been so confident about something. For a long time I was not sure what I wanted, like many people just leaving highschool, and even now I still can not say what exactly I want, but I know that I want to make people laugh. I want to make people laugh and then render them speechless when I turn around and make them cry. My goal is to hone the skills I already have and open myself to everything I do not. I believe that I can make an impact at UT Austin and I believe that I deserve the chance to try.
