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Evaluate a significant experience, achievement, risk you have taken, or ethical dilemma you have faced and its impact on you.
The one thing I can attribute my success to is depression. Depression has been a source of much emotional turmoil, yet at the same time it compels me to push myself harder. Even though depression can render me incapacitated at times, I still continue to boast that it's an asset. I would even say that depression is my virtue. When I initially experienced depression it was a terrible burden, however, my first experience with depression changed my life profoundly.
The summer of eighth grade was a crucial period in my life - it was the first time I experienced depression. Until then I found ways to cope with isolation, living in a motel, and having to deal with my family. But when school ended I no longer had anything to divert my attention. I felt forced to stay in a chaotic environment. I had no friends, no support, and no extracurricular activities - I was lost. Over time the burden of living in a dysfunctional family took its toll on me. I became embittered towards my mom for everything she enabled. Gradually depression began to take form and change me.
As the onset of depression continued, I began to experience a miasma of despair and embitterment. I grew to fervently hate my family, however, at the same time I was indifferent to my surroundings. Whenever my family and their friends began to party, I would just lie in my bed and sulk in my misery. While lying on my bed I began to contemplate my living conditions, and whether or not I should continue on or not. What I wanted desperately was something to look forward to in life. Even while depressed I decided to work toward achieving something with my life.
At first it was a difficult task, but with time it became easier. When I decided to thrust myself into the real world it was overwhelming. I knew then that I would have to develop social skills and self-discipline. Gradually I began to develop both skills, and even though I lack in social skills I still believe that my self-discipline compensates. Now self-discipline permeates every aspect of my life - I would much rather work than have fun. And my drastic change has everything to do with depression. I wouldn't change a thing that I've gone through, and despite the toll that depression takes I will continue to persevere.
Evaluate a significant experience, achievement, risk you have taken, or ethical dilemma you have faced and its impact on you.
The one thing I can attribute my success to is depression. Depression has been a source of much emotional turmoil, yet at the same time it compels me to push myself harder. Even though depression can render me incapacitated at times, I still continue to boast that it's an asset. I would even say that depression is my virtue. When I initially experienced depression it was a terrible burden, however, my first experience with depression changed my life profoundly.
The summer of eighth grade was a crucial period in my life - it was the first time I experienced depression. Until then I found ways to cope with isolation, living in a motel, and having to deal with my family. But when school ended I no longer had anything to divert my attention. I felt forced to stay in a chaotic environment. I had no friends, no support, and no extracurricular activities - I was lost. Over time the burden of living in a dysfunctional family took its toll on me. I became embittered towards my mom for everything she enabled. Gradually depression began to take form and change me.
As the onset of depression continued, I began to experience a miasma of despair and embitterment. I grew to fervently hate my family, however, at the same time I was indifferent to my surroundings. Whenever my family and their friends began to party, I would just lie in my bed and sulk in my misery. While lying on my bed I began to contemplate my living conditions, and whether or not I should continue on or not. What I wanted desperately was something to look forward to in life. Even while depressed I decided to work toward achieving something with my life.
At first it was a difficult task, but with time it became easier. When I decided to thrust myself into the real world it was overwhelming. I knew then that I would have to develop social skills and self-discipline. Gradually I began to develop both skills, and even though I lack in social skills I still believe that my self-discipline compensates. Now self-discipline permeates every aspect of my life - I would much rather work than have fun. And my drastic change has everything to do with depression. I wouldn't change a thing that I've gone through, and despite the toll that depression takes I will continue to persevere.
