Hi everybody ! i already submitted this essay but i would want to hear your points of view about it if possible ! Thank you ! (it is passionate, just begin the reading it will lead you to its end :D)
I have always known I have something different from others. During my whole life, I have never felt like I represented a "type of guy", a "topos". But that thing that has made me different, I need to express as a quality, not a way to show off.
During my childhood, teachers always considered me as an excellent pupil, and I used to have special relationships with them as if we had an agreement that had to urge me to show my abilities.
But once in junior high school, I did not feel I was needed. There were so many students there that teachers did not remember my name while however I was the teachers focus during elementary school. That was hard at first, but I got used to it even though my scores were not as good as I knew they could be. I was not a bad student, but even if i had good marks, I was not satisfied with it.
The turning point of my schooling was in my 10th grade, when I began "Economics and social studies*" courses. For the first time since elementary school, I felt that my abilities could finally be expressed thanks to Mr Hervieux, my "E and SS*" teacher. He made me understand that I did not have to wait for recognition from teachers. Knowing that I had the "thing" that made me different from others, he encouraged me and I renewed that special relation with teachers again. But I was more mature this time. My childhood experience with teachers helped me not to repeat the same mistakes. I sometimes used to stay with him after the courses, and talk about everything, and nothing: the objective was not to make me feel comfortable or become friends but we both knew what it was about without saying it, we both knew that the "thing" I had hidden for so long; it was time to reveal it. Even if my scores were not always the best in his courses, the real objective was accomplished. I was mature enough to understand the mechanisms of this world. He gave me the self-confidence that I needed. Since then, my level has increased and I definitely know that whatever I have to do, I had to do it for myself, not to have someone's recognition. Now, I focus on my abilities, always trying to do the best and to reach the top.
Outside school, I have learnt to be more understanding and open-minded, considering that anyone can undergo the same experience. Even if I know that i will not always receive a reward, I set the objective to succeed in everything I would start. I am aware now that there is one singular rule that is simple, and has always existed: this world does not give you what you deserve; it gives you what you fight for. Based on this rule, I fought for everything i wanted, mainly success. To my point of view, there is nothing more worthy of the merit of somebody than his success. And by success I do not mean money or school reports. Of course they are include it, but for me success means doing what you love to do, and being good at it and what I love to do, is to succeed at school. Like if a take a revenge for all these years of contempt. But now it's up to you to decide if I have succeeded or not, according to you, even though I know deep inside that I am doing great things, which are not measured by my results, but by my personality. And I hope that one day my experience will become true, so I could give all I have and all I learnt to people that may need something I have.
Mr Hervieux did not change my abilities; my brain and my soul stayed the same. But what changed is my view of this world. Finally I understand that what I have is for me an opportunity to raise myself to a level I have not thought I can reach. I hope you will see this essay beyond the pretentious words I use to see in it a promise of full implication in my studies and great unselfish ambitions that I hope to realize one day.
I have always known I have something different from others. During my whole life, I have never felt like I represented a "type of guy", a "topos". But that thing that has made me different, I need to express as a quality, not a way to show off.
During my childhood, teachers always considered me as an excellent pupil, and I used to have special relationships with them as if we had an agreement that had to urge me to show my abilities.
But once in junior high school, I did not feel I was needed. There were so many students there that teachers did not remember my name while however I was the teachers focus during elementary school. That was hard at first, but I got used to it even though my scores were not as good as I knew they could be. I was not a bad student, but even if i had good marks, I was not satisfied with it.
The turning point of my schooling was in my 10th grade, when I began "Economics and social studies*" courses. For the first time since elementary school, I felt that my abilities could finally be expressed thanks to Mr Hervieux, my "E and SS*" teacher. He made me understand that I did not have to wait for recognition from teachers. Knowing that I had the "thing" that made me different from others, he encouraged me and I renewed that special relation with teachers again. But I was more mature this time. My childhood experience with teachers helped me not to repeat the same mistakes. I sometimes used to stay with him after the courses, and talk about everything, and nothing: the objective was not to make me feel comfortable or become friends but we both knew what it was about without saying it, we both knew that the "thing" I had hidden for so long; it was time to reveal it. Even if my scores were not always the best in his courses, the real objective was accomplished. I was mature enough to understand the mechanisms of this world. He gave me the self-confidence that I needed. Since then, my level has increased and I definitely know that whatever I have to do, I had to do it for myself, not to have someone's recognition. Now, I focus on my abilities, always trying to do the best and to reach the top.
Outside school, I have learnt to be more understanding and open-minded, considering that anyone can undergo the same experience. Even if I know that i will not always receive a reward, I set the objective to succeed in everything I would start. I am aware now that there is one singular rule that is simple, and has always existed: this world does not give you what you deserve; it gives you what you fight for. Based on this rule, I fought for everything i wanted, mainly success. To my point of view, there is nothing more worthy of the merit of somebody than his success. And by success I do not mean money or school reports. Of course they are include it, but for me success means doing what you love to do, and being good at it and what I love to do, is to succeed at school. Like if a take a revenge for all these years of contempt. But now it's up to you to decide if I have succeeded or not, according to you, even though I know deep inside that I am doing great things, which are not measured by my results, but by my personality. And I hope that one day my experience will become true, so I could give all I have and all I learnt to people that may need something I have.
Mr Hervieux did not change my abilities; my brain and my soul stayed the same. But what changed is my view of this world. Finally I understand that what I have is for me an opportunity to raise myself to a level I have not thought I can reach. I hope you will see this essay beyond the pretentious words I use to see in it a promise of full implication in my studies and great unselfish ambitions that I hope to realize one day.