Worthless. Stupid. Failure. For as long as I can recall , these words shackled every aspect of my life. My parent's emotional abuse eroded away at who I was and individual I aspired to become. I struggled to release myself from the burden of their words. But as I try to earn their happiness, I found my own.
The pain that their words invoked cannot be articulated into words. These feeling haunted every fragment of my day. I could not escape their afflictions. For a long period of time, I attempted to ignore the hurt. I shielded my battle with a smile. But, ignoring the problem did not deflect the pain.
Gradually, I became desperate not to allow their words to define me. So, I decided to take control. I walked into my freshman year with a mission: I would personify their concept of perfection. Subsequently, I sign up for as many clubs as I could and worked tirelessly in school. The results did not achieve their approval. But, I did gained much more.
My involvement in extracurricular activities set me to embark on a journey to attain my own approval. In participating in Best Buddies I unearthed my love for serving people. As I dedicated myself to helping others define their value, I have discovered the ability that I have to impact a life. This personal realization of worth was further developed in Mock Trial. Whether delivering an opening statement with pose or portraying a witness with enthusiasm, I have found my confidence in the courtroom. In Youth and Government I utilized I expanded that confidence. This program has given me several opportunities to present legislation with 655 fellow New York delegates in the Albany Capital chambers. Now, in my second year serving as a Presiding Officer I am confident in my beliefs and my values. MSG Varsity ignited my passion for educating the public. Directing, writing and reporting on stories in my school has brought me to a variety of places. From interviewing Senators in my school's library to Olympic athlete at Town Hall I am so very proud and honored by my accomplishments. In the capital, in the courtroom and in front of a camera I have found that wasn't there approval that I needed; I was my own.
In diving myself into these activities I have discovered my worth, intelligence and success. I still struggle with the noise. However, I have learned to appreciate the pain that I have survived through. My attempt to conquer my parents words shaped and molded me into a person that I am proud of today. Without that struggled, I would not have progressed. Through negating those words I found not only happiness but my purpose. The adversity the I faced, has taught me to perceive hardship as an opportunity to develop. I'm certain that there is more difficulty to come. I am ready to see what I can learn from these future trials.
The pain that their words invoked cannot be articulated into words. These feeling haunted every fragment of my day. I could not escape their afflictions. For a long period of time, I attempted to ignore the hurt. I shielded my battle with a smile. But, ignoring the problem did not deflect the pain.
Gradually, I became desperate not to allow their words to define me. So, I decided to take control. I walked into my freshman year with a mission: I would personify their concept of perfection. Subsequently, I sign up for as many clubs as I could and worked tirelessly in school. The results did not achieve their approval. But, I did gained much more.
My involvement in extracurricular activities set me to embark on a journey to attain my own approval. In participating in Best Buddies I unearthed my love for serving people. As I dedicated myself to helping others define their value, I have discovered the ability that I have to impact a life. This personal realization of worth was further developed in Mock Trial. Whether delivering an opening statement with pose or portraying a witness with enthusiasm, I have found my confidence in the courtroom. In Youth and Government I utilized I expanded that confidence. This program has given me several opportunities to present legislation with 655 fellow New York delegates in the Albany Capital chambers. Now, in my second year serving as a Presiding Officer I am confident in my beliefs and my values. MSG Varsity ignited my passion for educating the public. Directing, writing and reporting on stories in my school has brought me to a variety of places. From interviewing Senators in my school's library to Olympic athlete at Town Hall I am so very proud and honored by my accomplishments. In the capital, in the courtroom and in front of a camera I have found that wasn't there approval that I needed; I was my own.
In diving myself into these activities I have discovered my worth, intelligence and success. I still struggle with the noise. However, I have learned to appreciate the pain that I have survived through. My attempt to conquer my parents words shaped and molded me into a person that I am proud of today. Without that struggled, I would not have progressed. Through negating those words I found not only happiness but my purpose. The adversity the I faced, has taught me to perceive hardship as an opportunity to develop. I'm certain that there is more difficulty to come. I am ready to see what I can learn from these future trials.
