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"Sadness"- Yale supplement [9]
Tell us something about yourself you did not get the chance to say in the common app
This essay here is a lot like psychoanalysis. I get to talk about myself to an academic, I do not see the addressed person and I get to pay 80 dollars for this opportunity. "So how are you feeling today?"
To be honest I am sad. Sometimes I feel just the pain of being. It is the result of the gap between idea and reality, or the difference between what is and what is possible.
I believe strongly in the idea of cultural understanding and yet I look at a world full of racial conflicts.
However, it is not only intellectual, but also personal disappointment in the world.
When I first went to secondary school everything was intense. I met new friends and felt the total excitement of saying "Hello, I am Max." to a cute girl. Although I have now grown accustomed to school, sometimes in a trite lesson I cannot help but long for the thrill of the first day.
One way to deal with the gap is to simply block out the sun of ideas and to live sedatedly in the cave of conventions. I have tried this a few times. However, even when I was laughing and drinking beer at boring parties, my happiness was only superficial. It did not feel real. This is why I choose to seek true excitement through exploring the virtually endless possibilities of human experience.
About a year ago I first read about the revolutionary concept of polyphasic sleep. By sleeping several times a day, one can reduce daily sleep to four hours, or even up to two hours. All it takes is an incredibly hard adaptation period of four weeks.
Although my first two failures led me almost to believe polyphasic sleep was impossible my fascination with the idea let me try a third time and succeed. Since two months I have four hours a day more to expand my knowledge and experience.
I have learned speed-reading, which enabled me to read texts two times faster, and started to meditate daily, which lets me attain peace.
However, the most prodigious discovery I made was lucid dreaming. This is the learnable ability to control one's dream actively. Mankind is actually able to create the world as it likes.
When I explore these things I feel like a pioneer into the unknown realms of the human mind, which fills me with pure passion. When I make myself aware of the fact that I have learned about those things in just one year, I realize that I have only glimpsed into the human potential which is bigger than I can possibly imagine. This fills me with awe of life and lets me forget about my occasional sadness.
Well, our first session has come to an end and I have obviously started to feel better. I hope that we can begin treatment at your office in fall. Psychoanalysis takes a long time, so how would you feel about a time span of four years?
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Well, our first session has come to an end and I have obviously started to feel better. I hope that we can begin treatment at your office in fall. Psychoanalysis takes a long time, so how would you feel about a time span of four years?